Will this situation end…😭😭

He himself went farther on into the desert a day’s journey. He finally sat down under a solitary broom bush. He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.”
1 Kings 19:4 CEB

We celebrated New Year, and it was fun but…. I know someone might be feeling like the world is closing up on them. Things are falling apart, they don’t know what to do. I have been there, I know the feeling. Whatever you try, seem not to succeed. You always tired, lonely even when there are people around you. You don’t know how you going to provide for self and family, you sick emotionally and physically. You wash yourself and dress well but you can’t dress the pain, the suffering, your thoughts and the depression.

When you are alone, you ask ” God,why, what have I done wrong, when is this pain or suffering end” You have given your life to God but you are in a place where you don’t see his saving hand. Prophet Elijah wished to die and you might be wishing the same –He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.” Don’t take your life, even on your worst day because soon you will sing this song ” Hanthe Jeso o na. mpona hake tsamaya tseleng e thata.”

What I know even in your darkest time God does not leave you but your pain and tears block you from seeing him. He lay down and slept under the solitary broom bush. Then suddenly a messenger tapped him and said to him, “Get up! Eat something!” Elijah opened his eyes and saw flatbread baked on glowing coals and a jar of water right by his head. He ate and drank, and then went back to sleep.
1 Kings 19:5‭-‬6 CEB. He never said thank you, because this gesture did not mean anything compared to his pain.

After the earthquake, there was a fire. But the LORD wasn’t in the fire. After the fire, there was a sound. Thin. Quiet. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his coat. He went out and stood at the cave’s entrance. A voice came to him and said, “Why are you here, Elijah?”1 Kings 19:12‭-‬13 CEB. I think the voice of God Elijah heard,is the same voice we all hear in our hearts. “How did I get here” and like Elijah we give our victim statements and narrate all the negative things that has happened to us.

The question to Elijah was after a meal and God wanted him to see what he was doing because he was giving him an opportunity to choose life. I call heaven and earth as my witnesses against you right now: I have set life and death, blessing and curse before you. Now choose life—so that you and your descendants will live—Deuteronomy 30:19 CEB

In the middle of your storms choose life, and remember nothing is permanent. I am speaking from experience, that situation will not last forever. Something good is about to happen to wipe your tears.

Lots of love

S.C

Why carry a heavy load daily?

Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
Matthew 11:29‭-‬30 KJV

I was praying with this lady, who had serious migraines. We prayed for the headache, she became better but a day later it was worse. I felt in my heart this was more than physical and I gently asked her if she has bitterness or unforgiveness that she is dealing with. She cried and explained how her mother watched her stepfather abuse her and how she suffered as a child. The story was long and how as she was growing started to have these headaches. We started the process of forgiveness for all her suffering as a child to adulthood. I gave her an assignment that whatever comes to mind that has caused her pain or suffering she should release and forgive first herself for harboring such resentment and anger, then forgive all those who have hurt her. The headaches started to be mild, then she will have them once sometime and were gone. She is completely healed confirmed by migraine clinic.

Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. 3 John 1:2 KJV. Our health is attached to our soul. Most of us we wake up angry with our partners, our bosses, our family and this anger we carry it and think about it day and night. This anger is poisonous to our system, we begin to have stress, headaches, stomach pains, panicking attacks etc and as the time goes on we get really sick and forget about the load we carrying in our hearts. We inflict pain on ourselves unaware by anger, bitterness, unforgiveness, resentment etc. Yes people will hurt us, people will hate us, people will stab us on the back but if we don’t forgive them it means they continue to inflict the pain on us.

I am not saying all sickness is related to our emotional baggage but some sickness are caused by our emotional baggage. I was 13 years when I had rheumatoid arthritis and my mother was getting married and left me with my granny. On reflection I realized that I felt rejected as a child and my body reacted. I have since forgiven myself for harbouring the feelings of rejection and forgiven each person that made me feel rejected and not loved. I have pleaded the blood of Jesus in my situation. We were created to live healthy. Our bodies are designed to heal themselves . If I cut my finger, my body comes to attention, sending everything necessary to rebuild what was destroyed. But it must be understood that we were not designed to carry the weight of sins such as bitterness and unforgiveness.

So above all, guard the affections of your heart, for they affect all that you are. Pay attention to the welfare of your innermost being, for from there flows the wellspring of life. Proverbs 4:23 TPT. Have you noticed that when you have a conflict with someone. You begin to experience pains in your body. This pain as time goes on vanishes and you develop anger, bitterness, unforgiveness and begin to talk about your emotions to everyone willing to listen. Then let me tell you, you are in the process of polluting your own system and the pain will develop to something big. Then you will spend more money on the problem, forgive – forgive-forgive for your own health and peace.

‘Lord forgive me for hating people who have hurt me, forgive me for harboring resentment for those who used me, forgive me for those I have caused pain in their lives. Lord forgive every one who has caused pain in my life and bless them on their daily adventures. I ask you the greatest forgiver of sin to look at me with grace and mercy. AMEN ‘

If you have not accepted Jesus Christ as your Lord and Saviour and you will like to accept him say this ‘Dear Lord Jesus, I know I am a sinner. I believe You died for my sins. Right now, I turn from my sins and open the door of my heart and life. I confess You as my personal Lord and Savior. Thank You for saving me. Amen.‘

Lots of love

S.C

It’s ok, not to be ok⁉️

in my distress I cried out to you, the delivering God, and from your temple-throne you heard my troubled cry, and my sobs went right into your heart.
Psalms 18:6 TPT

Sometimes as Christians we think it is question our faith or God’s ability when we don’t feel ok. As Christians we have not graduated from being humans. We cannot live life like we immune from problems. Jesus said don’t take them from this world even though they are not of this world.

In my distress I cried out to the LORD; I cried out to my God. God heard my voice from his temple; my cry for help reached his ears. 2 Samuel 22:7 CEB. David a man who was close to God’s heart also got distressed and cried to God. After removing him, God raised up David to be king, for God said of him, ‘I have found in David, son of Jesse, a man who always pursues my heart and will accomplish all that I have destined him to do.Acts 13:22 TPT

So it’s ok not to be ok, cry to the Lord it does not make you weak or faithless but allows you to be human. O God, hear my prayer. Listen to my heart’s cry. For no matter where I am, even when I’m far from home, I will cry out to you for a father’s help. When I’m feeble and overwhelmed by life, guide me into your glory, where I am safe and sheltered.
Psalms 61:1‭-‬2 TPT. Life sometimes will knock you down but you won’t be down forever. Yes sometimes it gets dark to darker but the sun will definitely shine again. Cry, scream to the Lord, he will hear your sufferings and answer.

But you, God, shield me on all sides; You ground my feet, you lift my head high; With all my might I shout up to God, His answers thunder from the holy mountain.
Psalms 3:3‭-‬4 MSG

Lots of love

S.C

Why Lord, why 😭⁉️

Why, I ask myself, are you so depressed? Why are you so upset inside? Hope in God! Because I will again give him thanks, my saving presence and my God.
Psalms 42:11 CEB

People ask the Why, or Why Me? I don’t have the answer because I sometimes ask God the same. You might ask this question because you lost someone you love, you have just been diagnosed with a terrible disease, you have been sick for sometime, you have been praying to have just one child, you have received bad news, you have lost a job, your marriage or relationship is falling apart, your life is a mess, nothing makes sense in your life, you seem to be drowning into a dark pit, I don’t know your situation and I don’t know why is happening but ….

Though we experience every kind of pressure, we’re not crushed. At times we don’t know what to do, but quitting is not an option. We are persecuted by others, but God has not forsaken us. We may be knocked down, but not out.
2 Corinthians 4:8‭-‬9 TPT. Whatever you going through it will never crush you, quiting is never an option because God has not forsaken you.

I’ve learned that his anger lasts for a moment, but his loving favor lasts a lifetime! We may weep through the night, but at daybreak it will turn into shouts of ecstatic joy. I remember boasting, “I’ve got it made! Nothing can stop me now! I’m God’s favored one; he’s made me steady as a mountain!” But then suddenly, you hid your face from me. I was panic-stricken and became depressed. Psalms 30:5‭-‬7 TPT. Your night might be very long but daybreak will come. It cannot stay night forever.

Immediately Jesus went with him, and the huge crowd followed, pressing in on him from all sides. Now, in the crowd that day was a woman who had suffered horribly from continual bleeding for twelve years. She had endured a great deal under the care of various doctors, yet in spite of spending all she had on their treatments, she was getting worse instead of better. When she heard about Jesus’ healing power, she pushed through the crowd and came up from behind him and touched his prayer shawl. For she kept saying to herself, “If I could touch even his clothes, I know I will be healed.” Mark 5:24‭-‬28 TPT. This woman understood her suffering and pain, she did all she could but it did not help. She made a decision to say enough is enough, today is my day “If I could touch even his clothes, I know I will be healed.” I know I will be healed, shows that she had made up her mind that today her problem was over.

So here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Leave all your cares and anxieties at the feet of the Lord, and measureless grace will strengthen you.
Psalms 55:22 TPT

“Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Come to me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis.
Matthew 11:28 TPT

Pour out all your worries and stress upon him and leave them there, for he always tenderly cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7 TPT

I will say decide today and say ‘I cast all my burdens unto you Lord because you are gentle, caring and won’t mind. I know you love me enough to take care of this heavy load. I am deciding to leave this burden with you, you will see to finish what you do with it. Thank you for allowing me to walk away free while you carry the heavy load for me. Amen’

Lots of love

S.C

Is worry sickness or unbelief?

“This is why I tell you to never be worried about your life, for all that you need will be provided, such as food, water, clothing—everything your body needs. Isn’t there more to your life than a meal? Isn’t your body more than clothing?
Matthew 6:25 TPT

I ask myself as a believer of the word of God, why am I selective in what I believe? God said I should not worry but that is exactly what I do day and night, is it because I don’t trust him? “So then, forsake your worries! Why would you say, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear?’ For that is what the unbelievers chase after. Doesn’t your heavenly Father already know the things your bodies require? Matthew 6:31‭-‬32 TPT. This is me and probably you👇

I couldn’t sleep worried
Woke up worried
Walked like a zombie worried
Ate food but couldn’t taste or smell worried.
Every unoccupied minute, I get worried.
Why am I so worried, does getting worried solve my problems?

I worry about what others think
I worry about things that will never happen
I worry about my children and family I worry about what others say about ME
I worry about what will I wear
I worry about what will I eat
I worry about finances
I worry about God hearing my prayers
Why worry, does it change my situation?

I suffer stress and anxiety from worrying
I suffer hypertension from worrying
I suffer depression from worrying
I suffer diabetes from worrying I suffer panic attacks from worrying
I suffer various diseases from worrying
Do I need to suffer so much?

Lord today I declare and decree that I am free from worry, I choose freedom, happiness,contentment, abundance and life.I Refuse to worry about tomorrow, but deal with each challenge that comes MY way, one day at a time. Tomorrow will take care of itself.”Matthew 6:34 TPT when my mind begin to idle to worry mode, I will distract it by singing praises and declaring that you Lord have already taken care of that.

Lots of love

S.C

Learning to trust…

Trust in the LORD with all your heart; don’t rely on your own intelligence.
Proverbs 3:5 CEB

I leaned on my intelligence, family and friends and I realised I needed more… When you go through depression nothing makes sense since the pain is too deep. You can try numbing it, with various things but it stays there. Some of us we have learned to hide our pain so that we cannot be judged or become vulnerable and it won’t be easy for someone to see or help. I understand when someone commit suicide and people get surprized that they did not see it coming.

I went back to my creator who has a manual for my life. I spent hours reading about my relationship with the Holy Spirit and He started showing me how much God loves ME. I began to see my worth, it was like I was reborn again. Scriptures that I knew, began to have a different meaning and I understood them better.

Holy Spirit is very gentle when teaching you to live a fruitful life again. He will not judge you as the world would.I learned to appreciate my self and love again. Loving God first then family and friends with all their faults.

Daily I allow myself to be led by the Holy Spirit and the first person to notice that I was having peace and laughing again was my partner. I am now learning not to worry about anything, my faith is in another level. I love the place I am in, I would say to someone who has lost hope and is in the deep dark place “Its not your fault, even the greatest people in the world they go through this phase, seek help it is not the sign of weakness” I sought help from the most reliable person, God and as always He never disappoint.

I am free from poisonous thoughts and every day is a blessing. I will share with you the mystery of finding myself Loved beyond comprehension.

Lots of Love

S.C