I waited patiently for the Lord ; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
Psalms 40:1-2 KJV
Many people wonder, why I stopped writing and when asked I could not answer. Now is the time because I understand what was going on.
I did not stop writing completely but I was writing Novels. This blog is different, here I write about what is in my heart and what God plants in my mind. So I was in the dark place and could not write.
I went through difficult times which made me doubt my faith, I cannot say I doubted God but in reality I felt like he abandoned me. I tried hard to find Him but felt that He was too far and I still believed in Him in a different way.
I was overwhelmed by challenges of life, health, finances and my spiritual journey was difficult. I was lonely and doubted my abilities. There was a time when I pushed everyone who cared about me away because I felt judged and insufficient.
There were friends and family who understood what I was going through and they kept their distance but will keep on coming back and showing me love. I really thank them for staying with me, when I was not nice to be around.
I am sharing this so that we know that we all not immune to challenges and depression. Most people don’t understand what you going through and they keep on pushing you to be the old self while they are pushing you to the edge.
David a man who understood God and God said he was close to his heart, he also went to a horrible pit, so we all go through these challenges so that God can pull us out.
And when he had removed him, he raised up unto them David to be their king; to whom also he gave testimony, and said, I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after mine own heart, which shall fulfil all my will.
I pray that family, friends and colleagues would see signs of depression and give support to those in need. We don’t need to fake that we ok, when we not ok.
I am back, and will be sharing my love with all once a week.
Stay Safe until the next episode