Searching for meaning…

I waited patiently for the Lord ; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings.
Psalms 40:1‭-‬2 KJV

Many people wonder, why I stopped writing and when asked I could not answer. Now is the time because I understand what was going on.

I did not stop writing completely but I was writing Novels. This blog is different, here I write about what is in my heart and what God plants in my mind. So I was in the dark place and could not write.

I went through difficult times which made me doubt my faith, I cannot say I doubted God but in reality I felt like he abandoned me. I tried hard to find Him but felt that He was too far and I still believed in Him in a different way.

I was overwhelmed by challenges of life, health, finances and my spiritual journey was difficult. I was lonely and doubted my abilities. There was a time when I pushed everyone who cared about me away because I felt judged and insufficient.

There were friends and family who understood what I was going through and they kept their distance but will keep on coming back and showing me love. I really thank them for staying with me, when I was not nice to be around.

I am sharing this so that we know that we all not immune to challenges and depression. Most people don’t understand what you going through and they keep on pushing you to be the old self while they are pushing you to the edge.

David a man who understood God and God said he was close to his heart, he also went to a horrible pit, so we all go through these challenges so that God can pull us out.

And when he had removed him, he raised up unto them David to be their king; to whom also he gave testimony, and said, I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after mine own heart, which shall fulfil all my will.
Acts 13:22

I pray that family, friends and colleagues would see signs of depression and give support to those in need. We don’t need to fake that we ok, when we not ok.

I am back, and will be sharing my love with all once a week.

Stay Safe until the next episode

Mercy and kindness

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.
Psalms 23:6 KJV

When faced with mounting problems at times you get tempted to give up. I know how difficult life is 2020, we living in a crisis mode. As difficult as it is, some have even abandoned their faith because they don’t feel God’s presence.

In the deep, dark drain with so much stench. I saw a purple rose grow and I asked God how can this be? So never give up, God sees you in that dark, deep corner where you might be. His mercy follows us everywhere.

I find peace, joy and acceptance of any situation in writing. I have been writing books that will help build relationships that God wants us to have. RELATIONSHIP WITH MYSELF and RELATIONSHIP GOALS:

my pen name is S.C Wise.

Lots of love, never give up

Did they really lose the Signal?

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And Simeon blessed them, and said unto Mary his mother, Behold, this child is set for the fall and rising again of many in Israel; and for a sign which shall be spoken against;
Luke 2:34 KJV

The last episode, I related how the father in the family committed suicide. He left the family without television connection which made the television useless. The mother decided not to come back home daily because the suffering in the family was too much to bear

After approximately a year after the father died, the mother moved on with another man leaving the children to fend for themselves. It was a trying time for these children

People would come and give them food parcel and say these words which never made sense to these children.For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;
2 Corinthians 4:17

People will say you are never alone, you have a father that cares for you,this is just a temporary affliction and all these words never made sense. Then one day a man came with papers from their father’s insurance which he took long ago, whilst he was still working and he had continued paying his contributions to it. The man explained to them that their father left them money that will pay for their monthly needs until they finish schooling. The balance they will get it individually when they produce their qualifications.

When the mother heard about the insurance policy she came back…..

Lots of love see you in the next episode what will happen to this family with their mother back …..

Signal was fine……

James 1:2
Testing of Your Faith
Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds,

In the story from the previous episode, the man had sold the only cow that provided milk for the family. They went and bought television with the wife and it came with one month subscription free for connection. They were all happy especially the mother and children had a really good time watching the television until the early hours of the morning.

Few days later the reality downed that they did not have food since they sold their source of milk. The children looked very sad at their father as they were leaving for school hungry everyday and their mother continually said the husband he must make a plan since he is the man of the house. He tried his best to get something to eat daily but every day was harder. The children will eat whatever was provided and be consoled by watching television until late, television was their source of joy whilst their mother and father fought about everything.

Month end came and they did not have subscription fee and the connection was suspended. The man could not take it, he felt that he has failed his family and was not worth living. He committed suicide. Matthew 27:5 And throwing down the pieces of silver into the temple, he departed, and he went and hanged himself. Judas felt overwhelmed and worthless and decided to take his life. Most people when overwhelmed by whatever is happening in life, they think of taking their lives because they don’t see a way out of the situation.

Luke 23:34a And Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do.” Judas was not aware that Jesus had already asked his father to forgive him. Guilt and unworthiness consumed him to death. Most people when faced with too many problems they keep it to themselves until they cannot take it anymore instead of talking to someone, if Judas spoke to someone he might have known that he was already forgiven. When life throws a lot on us, we need to take a break and refocus we might find a solution at places unexpected.

Lots of love see you in the next episode

How to get connection?

Psalms 83:1 O God, do not keep silence;do not hold your peace or be still, O God!

There are times in life when you feel like God has left you, you feel alone and abandoned. Although he said I will never leave you nor forsake you, you feel like you are in the dry season of your life sometimes he is silently watching the love of his life. In the last episode we spoke about a couple that did not have enough money to buy a television with arial and connection subscription so they decided to buy an arial. The husband agreed to buy the television arial just to make the wife happy. When they arrived home, the children were so happy and the mother asked them to ensure that they put the arial on the roof top point. The children did as requested but could not understand the logic.

The little smiling faces after completing installing the arial, they came and sat waiting for the television. In their little minds maybe a delivery man was still coming with the television,the father seeing their faces was embarrassed and explained the buying process. They couldn’t understand who buys an arial before the television but what could they say. The wife went to work as usual and people were talking about how strange her television arial was, and explained that they don’t understand how the wires were connected to the television. Romans 5:8 But God commendeth his own love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us. Sometimes we cannot understand our connection to God that whilst we were sinners, he sent Jesus Christ to die for us. God’s connection to us is too deep to understand, why he loved us so much that when we did not qualify to be saved but he still saved us and worked hard to connect us to him and today even if you feel like he is not there, we must just trust his promise.

When the wife came back from work, she was more furious with the husband, forgetting that it was her idea to put the arial on the top point of the roof. He asked the husband that they must buy a television since she cannot be a joke of the whole village. The husband tried explaining that they don’t have the money but his explanation fell into deaf ears. So they agreed that they will sell the cattle that was providing milk for the family in order to buy the television.

Philippians 4:11 Not that I am speaking of being in need, for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. Paul teaches us to be content with whatsoever we have, because if we are not content we will end up losing everything we have trying to please everyone. If we live to please people, people will always find something wrong with our actions and they will never appreciate our efforts. So if we learn to be content with ourselves we will be strong in our journey and hold on to our faith knowing that God is connected to us more than we are connected to him. As people we tend tone more connected to things and forget that these things they parish, we should always be connected to our creator. This family will not find happiness until they find contentment that is found in Christ alone.

Lots of Love see you in the last episode of the arial and connection

I Want an aerial, what?……..

There is this lady who stays in the village and she tells me her story which I will be sharing in the next three episodes. This lady I am sharing her story worked as a domestic worker and she used common taxi as transportation to commute to work daily. In the transport to work, she had other ladies who were also domestic workers who travelled with her and they will talk about television soap opera that played the previous night every day and she did not have a television.

When the other ladies were narrating, sharing and demonstrating their experiences of the soap opera, she will sit quietly and listen wishing she had access to television. One day she decided to discuss the issue with her husband and she was very sad and the husband felt her pain but they did not have money to buy television. The husband indicated that television needed arial, and connection and they did not have so much money as they were struggling to just feed their children.

This became a topic of every night until the husband came with a suggestion that they must buy either television after some time buy the arial or digital dish then subscribe for connection. The wife was so happy with the suggestion and agreed with the idea. Then the husband said we should go and shop for cheap televisions and the wife disagreed and said no we should first but the arial. The husband was confused why should they start with with the arial and the wife laughed and said the arial will be hanged outside the house and everyone will see that they have a television. 1 Peter 3:3-4
Whose adorning let it not be the outward adorning of braiding the hair, and of wearing jewels of gold, or of putting on apparel; but let it be the hidden man of the heart, in the incorruptible apparel of a meek and quiet spirit, which is in the sight of God of great price. This story indicates how much we want to show others that we belong and we rather look at our external beauty and not care about our internal beauty and Peter says we must clothe the hidden man of the heart which is a great price in God’s sight. I wonder who am I adorning and who are you adorning?

Lots of love see you on the next chapter continuation of the story

How do you deal with the loss of a loved one?

Today I attended a funeral of someone I loved so dearly and the pain was so deep especially knowing that I will not see them anymore. Looking at this situation made me wonder, that if as an adult I feel so lost and hurt, what about young children?

The question I think most of us ask ourselves , do these children understand the meaning of death? I ask myself how does a loving God allow these children to go through this painful experience? and how does the family explain the situation to the little ones? I ask these question because even Jesus Christ himself could not bear the pain of watching the sisters crying for their brother.And said, Where have ye laid him? They said unto him, Lord, come and see. Jesus wept. Then said the Jews, Behold how he loved him!John 11:34‭-‬36

Looking at death, makes me understand why people get angry with God for taking their loved ones which is a sad experience.What also complicates things are the people who come to comfort the family when they keep on saying its God’s will. When you are going through the loss of a loved one and people keep on pointing to God as the source of your pain. I wonder whether we have thought about our actions as we visit these families because I realised that as comforters we want to tell people how they should feel instead of listening to them explaining how they feeling. Wherefore, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath: James 1:19 KJV. We need to listen more than talking because we might be worsening the situation,God created two ears and one mouth for a reason.

Job 1:21 And said, Naked came I out of my mother’s womb,and naked shall I return thither: the Lord gave, and the Lord hath taken away; blessed be the name of the Lord. I wish someone can explain this verse to me in the correct context because I am grieving and in pain and you tell me God gave and God had taken. How do we expect people to feel or maybe because we don’t have answers then it must be God who caused the situation since he cannot answer for himself. Truly I don’t know the answers to my questions but I know readers will help me to find answers.

Lots of Love see you in the next episode

Never been easy to hear you…..

Remember what it says: “Today when you hear his voice, don’t harden your hearts as Israel did when they rebelled.” Hebrews 3:15 NLT

One day I was attending a church service and during the service there was time for collection. It was during this time when people were moving to the front to bring the collection when I heard a small coin fall. You could hear it was small coin, and the second coin fell and this one caught the attention of many because you could hear it was a bigger coin. I smiled looking at people helping the owner to search for the coin.

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You may wonder why was I smiling? I was smiling because most people say they cannot hear God’s voice but they could hear a coin falling and also determine its value. How strange is that? Today I was pulled to this verse The gatekeeper opens the gate for him, and the sheep recognize his voice and come to him. He calls his own sheep by name and leads them out. After he has gathered his own flock, he walks ahead of them, and they follow him because they know his voice.John 10:3‭-‬4 NLT.This verse says the sheep knows his voice and when they hear his voice, they follow the Shepherd and the shepherd takes care of his sheep not any sheep but his sheep.

My question was if we cannot hear our shepherd it means we can go astray and be stolen by thieves. We listen to various things such as music, news, drama, gossip etc and we can even tell who is speaking or who is singing but we can’t hear the voice of our shepherd. I would be sad if I was the shepherd of the flock that can’t even recognize my voice. I like the way the shepherd say that they hear my voice and he does not speak about they listen to my voice, because we can listen but not hear.

So the shepherd used the word hear because when he calls, the sound does not only go to the ear but also to the heart. He says “Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends. Revelation 3:20 NLT.He stands at the door of our hearts and knocks and if we hear with our hearts and open our hearts he only wants to be our friend but we say we can’t hear him. I desire we can hear him as we hear falling coins or the voices on our television or radio. Remember he has never been a silent God, he loves to communicate with his sheep because he loves them dearly.

Lots of Love, see you in the next episode

Rest in me….

Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
Psalms 91:1 NLT

It was a cool summer day when I decided to take a nap since I have been worried about many things that were not going my way . I had visited a medical practitioner two days earlier and he checked my BP and found that it was very high and he advised me rest more often . I was in a very stressful situation and prayed a lot but the situation did not change.

I slept praying and I can’t tell whether I was asleep or was awake but I saw and heard Jesus saying to me “Charity rest in me” I was puzzled by this and decided to pray about the word also asking Holy Spirit to guide me to find verses that confirm the word I heard. Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28 NLT This was the first verse that came very strong on my spirit and looking at it I realized that I was carrying a heavy load and could not rest. Why was I not giving Jesus my load? I asked myself but I knew that I prayed about my worries but realised the issue was that even after praying I still thought about my load all the time. So Jesus was saying when I have given him my load, I must learn to trust him with it and rest. How difficult can it be to rest.

The next verse was very assuring to me that Jesus was capable of taking care of my worries but he needed me to believe “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs.Matthew 6:31‭-‬32 NLT. The question that dominated my mind after reading this verse was that being worried about these issues was a sign of unbelief and I didn’t want to be someone who does not believe.I tried figuring out this unbelief thing with this example If you give someone your card to withdraw the money they need for a project and they don’t take the card but go on complaining about lack of money for the project. What does this mean, does it mean the person does not trust the card has the money or does it mean the person does not trust that you have the money. At the end its all about believing, How difficult can it be to rest

The next day I woke up with this verse : And to whom sware he that they should not enter into his rest, but to them that believed not? So we see that they could not enter in because of unbelief. Hebrews 3:18‭-‬19 KJV.The children of Israel could not enter into God’s rest because of unbelief. This made me very sad to realise that we cannot enter his rest because of unbelief and I pray for my unbelief. I ask God to help me to believe and not to worry about things I cannot change.

Lots of love see you in the next episode

How to live on heavenly realms?

Ephesians 2:6
And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:

I have a brother who is running marathons and when he started running the family never thought of him as a comrades marathon runner. He is very passionate about running and is recruiting all family members to also run. I have observed him develop healthy habits gradually to a point where these habits have become his second nature. Some examples of these habits are eating health, keeping his running schedule and using staircase instead of an elevator.Why am I sharing this story is because it is similar to us getting used to living as Heavenly citizens.

In the last episode we spoke about people who understood how to live on earth as well as heaven and most questions I have received were on the how and what were the benefits of dual citizenship. The how is the same as preparing for running marathons, you don’t wake up one day and say tomorrow I am going to run a marathon. Steps which are critical which needs to be developed as habits are to create private time daily to praise, worship, pray, read the word, quiet yourself, listen to God speak, allow Holy Spirit to lead and show you heavenly secrets. In the beginning it will be difficult to quiet your yourself because your mind will be flooded with various thoughts but I advice you to focus on breathing in and out since this will help you to get in tune all the time. When you commit to your schedule and commit to practising visiting heavenly realms , you will develop the habit and you will be in tune to living in heavenly realms regularly.

The benefits are plenty lets talk about peace our earthy home does not have peace and you can not know peace when you are on earth. You will be consumed by fear and troubles but when you spend time in heavenly realms you will find peace that exceed your expectation which would be the same like that of Jesus in the sea when everyone was afraid but he was sleeping peacefully because he was seated with his father in heavenly realms John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. In this peaceful place you will also experience joy that will keep you happy and full of hope.Romans 15:13Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. The peace, joy and hope will be your habits as a heavenly citizen, remember you cannot give what you do not have. The earth cannot give you peace, joy and hope since it does not know how to have peace but heaven is a peaceful, joyful and hopeful place so you will get refilled and learn to keep them.

The earth as much as it has plenty but everyone lives in the lack, we fight for the resources and everything. It is a place of survival of the fittest and everyone for themselves. In heaven you will learn to live in abundance and know that the king is your father and he is rich in everything and as a heavenly citizen you will not be consumed by thinking about what to eat, wear etc 2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work: Life in the heavenly realms in not a struggle because everything is in abundance and when things happen on earth they won’t bother you because you live constantly in a better place and as you spend more time in the heavenly realms you can even see things before they happen and when they happen you will not be amazed. 1 Corinthians 2:10 But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.

Lots of love see you in the next episode