Will this situation end…😭😭

He himself went farther on into the desert a day’s journey. He finally sat down under a solitary broom bush. He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.”
1 Kings 19:4 CEB

We celebrated New Year, and it was fun but…. I know someone might be feeling like the world is closing up on them. Things are falling apart, they don’t know what to do. I have been there, I know the feeling. Whatever you try, seem not to succeed. You always tired, lonely even when there are people around you. You don’t know how you going to provide for self and family, you sick emotionally and physically. You wash yourself and dress well but you can’t dress the pain, the suffering, your thoughts and the depression.

When you are alone, you ask ” God,why, what have I done wrong, when is this pain or suffering end” You have given your life to God but you are in a place where you don’t see his saving hand. Prophet Elijah wished to die and you might be wishing the same –He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.” Don’t take your life, even on your worst day because soon you will sing this song ” Hanthe Jeso o na. mpona hake tsamaya tseleng e thata.”

What I know even in your darkest time God does not leave you but your pain and tears block you from seeing him. He lay down and slept under the solitary broom bush. Then suddenly a messenger tapped him and said to him, “Get up! Eat something!” Elijah opened his eyes and saw flatbread baked on glowing coals and a jar of water right by his head. He ate and drank, and then went back to sleep.
1 Kings 19:5‭-‬6 CEB. He never said thank you, because this gesture did not mean anything compared to his pain.

After the earthquake, there was a fire. But the LORD wasn’t in the fire. After the fire, there was a sound. Thin. Quiet. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his coat. He went out and stood at the cave’s entrance. A voice came to him and said, “Why are you here, Elijah?”1 Kings 19:12‭-‬13 CEB. I think the voice of God Elijah heard,is the same voice we all hear in our hearts. “How did I get here” and like Elijah we give our victim statements and narrate all the negative things that has happened to us.

The question to Elijah was after a meal and God wanted him to see what he was doing because he was giving him an opportunity to choose life. I call heaven and earth as my witnesses against you right now: I have set life and death, blessing and curse before you. Now choose life—so that you and your descendants will live—Deuteronomy 30:19 CEB

In the middle of your storms choose life, and remember nothing is permanent. I am speaking from experience, that situation will not last forever. Something good is about to happen to wipe your tears.

Lots of love

S.C

Why Lord, why 😭⁉️

Why, I ask myself, are you so depressed? Why are you so upset inside? Hope in God! Because I will again give him thanks, my saving presence and my God.
Psalms 42:11 CEB

People ask the Why, or Why Me? I don’t have the answer because I sometimes ask God the same. You might ask this question because you lost someone you love, you have just been diagnosed with a terrible disease, you have been sick for sometime, you have been praying to have just one child, you have received bad news, you have lost a job, your marriage or relationship is falling apart, your life is a mess, nothing makes sense in your life, you seem to be drowning into a dark pit, I don’t know your situation and I don’t know why is happening but ….

Though we experience every kind of pressure, we’re not crushed. At times we don’t know what to do, but quitting is not an option. We are persecuted by others, but God has not forsaken us. We may be knocked down, but not out.
2 Corinthians 4:8‭-‬9 TPT. Whatever you going through it will never crush you, quiting is never an option because God has not forsaken you.

I’ve learned that his anger lasts for a moment, but his loving favor lasts a lifetime! We may weep through the night, but at daybreak it will turn into shouts of ecstatic joy. I remember boasting, “I’ve got it made! Nothing can stop me now! I’m God’s favored one; he’s made me steady as a mountain!” But then suddenly, you hid your face from me. I was panic-stricken and became depressed. Psalms 30:5‭-‬7 TPT. Your night might be very long but daybreak will come. It cannot stay night forever.

Immediately Jesus went with him, and the huge crowd followed, pressing in on him from all sides. Now, in the crowd that day was a woman who had suffered horribly from continual bleeding for twelve years. She had endured a great deal under the care of various doctors, yet in spite of spending all she had on their treatments, she was getting worse instead of better. When she heard about Jesus’ healing power, she pushed through the crowd and came up from behind him and touched his prayer shawl. For she kept saying to herself, “If I could touch even his clothes, I know I will be healed.” Mark 5:24‭-‬28 TPT. This woman understood her suffering and pain, she did all she could but it did not help. She made a decision to say enough is enough, today is my day “If I could touch even his clothes, I know I will be healed.” I know I will be healed, shows that she had made up her mind that today her problem was over.

So here’s what I’ve learned through it all: Leave all your cares and anxieties at the feet of the Lord, and measureless grace will strengthen you.
Psalms 55:22 TPT

“Are you weary, carrying a heavy burden? Come to me. I will refresh your life, for I am your oasis.
Matthew 11:28 TPT

Pour out all your worries and stress upon him and leave them there, for he always tenderly cares for you.
1 Peter 5:7 TPT

I will say decide today and say ‘I cast all my burdens unto you Lord because you are gentle, caring and won’t mind. I know you love me enough to take care of this heavy load. I am deciding to leave this burden with you, you will see to finish what you do with it. Thank you for allowing me to walk away free while you carry the heavy load for me. Amen’

Lots of love

S.C

Emptied to be filled…

I just want to obey all you ask of me. So teach me, Lord, for you are my God. Your gracious Spirit is all I need, so lead me on good paths that are pleasing to you, my one and only God!
Psalms 143:10 TPT

When you have an experience of being led by Holy Spirit and you know what it was like… You thirst and hunger for Him everyday and life becomes meaningless without him. I was Hot for Christ and I went and joined people who I perceived Hotter than me for Christ . I found myself losing my first love and feeling empty. I left the place after three years and came back home doubting so many things and since I was hiding my emptiness no one could help. I was dying spiritually, emotionally, physically and financially. I was bitter, angry and etc Let me share with you the experiences I had when I was walking in Glory

One day I was called to minister in this church and as I was to pray for people. I did not touch them, by just looking at them they would fall in Glory wish also was to my amazement. The other day in service as we prayed, God spoke to me that I should tell the gentlemen in front of me, he will have a baby next year this time. I told him after service he cried like a baby and I didn’t know they we trying and have gone to different doctors for a baby. He got his baby at the exact time. When you think God has stopped working miracles think again

One day I was called to minister somewhere far from my home. I did not have money but I said God will provide. I stopped at a petrol station to fill up and I had R200, I prayed the petrol will last me to the place. A person I met long time ago, just appeared from nowhere as I was saying to the petrol attendant R200 please he said fill it up please. I looked at him as though it was a joke, we greeted each other as he was about to leave he took out R5000 and gave me and said I can see your tyres are worn out. I was left in awe and at the church where I ministered they gave me a thank you but God had already provided. God is a Supernatural Provider, I think we limit Him.

Now you will understand why I called the place I was in the ‘wilderness‘. Life became dry and I was feeling empty inside. I never understood why God left me. Sometimes as Christians we don’t appreciate what we have or where we are and we always look for more. I learned to be still and content allowing myself to be led. I will share with you other testimony I have of the Living God before wilderness and what I see now is beyond and above the before.

I hope you renew you journey with the Holy Spirit and come back Home.

Lots of love

S.C