He himself went farther on into the desert a day’s journey. He finally sat down under a solitary broom bush. He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.”
1 Kings 19:4 CEB

We celebrated New Year, and it was fun but…. I know someone might be feeling like the world is closing up on them. Things are falling apart, they don’t know what to do. I have been there, I know the feeling. Whatever you try, seem not to succeed. You always tired, lonely even when there are people around you. You don’t know how you going to provide for self and family, you sick emotionally and physically. You wash yourself and dress well but you can’t dress the pain, the suffering, your thoughts and the depression.

When you are alone, you ask ” God,why, what have I done wrong, when is this pain or suffering end” You have given your life to God but you are in a place where you don’t see his saving hand. Prophet Elijah wished to die and you might be wishing the same –He longed for his own death: “It’s more than enough, LORD! Take my life because I’m no better than my ancestors.” Don’t take your life, even on your worst day because soon you will sing this song ” Hanthe Jeso o na. mpona hake tsamaya tseleng e thata.”

What I know even in your darkest time God does not leave you but your pain and tears block you from seeing him. He lay down and slept under the solitary broom bush. Then suddenly a messenger tapped him and said to him, “Get up! Eat something!” Elijah opened his eyes and saw flatbread baked on glowing coals and a jar of water right by his head. He ate and drank, and then went back to sleep.
1 Kings 19:5‭-‬6 CEB. He never said thank you, because this gesture did not mean anything compared to his pain.

After the earthquake, there was a fire. But the LORD wasn’t in the fire. After the fire, there was a sound. Thin. Quiet. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his coat. He went out and stood at the cave’s entrance. A voice came to him and said, “Why are you here, Elijah?”1 Kings 19:12‭-‬13 CEB. I think the voice of God Elijah heard,is the same voice we all hear in our hearts. “How did I get here” and like Elijah we give our victim statements and narrate all the negative things that has happened to us.

The question to Elijah was after a meal and God wanted him to see what he was doing because he was giving him an opportunity to choose life. I call heaven and earth as my witnesses against you right now: I have set life and death, blessing and curse before you. Now choose life—so that you and your descendants will live—Deuteronomy 30:19 CEB

In the middle of your storms choose life, and remember nothing is permanent. I am speaking from experience, that situation will not last forever. Something good is about to happen to wipe your tears.

Lots of love

S.C