How to live on heavenly realms?

Ephesians 2:6
And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:

I have a brother who is running marathons and when he started running the family never thought of him as a comrades marathon runner. He is very passionate about running and is recruiting all family members to also run. I have observed him develop healthy habits gradually to a point where these habits have become his second nature. Some examples of these habits are eating health, keeping his running schedule and using staircase instead of an elevator.Why am I sharing this story is because it is similar to us getting used to living as Heavenly citizens.

In the last episode we spoke about people who understood how to live on earth as well as heaven and most questions I have received were on the how and what were the benefits of dual citizenship. The how is the same as preparing for running marathons, you don’t wake up one day and say tomorrow I am going to run a marathon. Steps which are critical which needs to be developed as habits are to create private time daily to praise, worship, pray, read the word, quiet yourself, listen to God speak, allow Holy Spirit to lead and show you heavenly secrets. In the beginning it will be difficult to quiet your yourself because your mind will be flooded with various thoughts but I advice you to focus on breathing in and out since this will help you to get in tune all the time. When you commit to your schedule and commit to practising visiting heavenly realms , you will develop the habit and you will be in tune to living in heavenly realms regularly.

The benefits are plenty lets talk about peace our earthy home does not have peace and you can not know peace when you are on earth. You will be consumed by fear and troubles but when you spend time in heavenly realms you will find peace that exceed your expectation which would be the same like that of Jesus in the sea when everyone was afraid but he was sleeping peacefully because he was seated with his father in heavenly realms John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. In this peaceful place you will also experience joy that will keep you happy and full of hope.Romans 15:13Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, in the power of the Holy Spirit. The peace, joy and hope will be your habits as a heavenly citizen, remember you cannot give what you do not have. The earth cannot give you peace, joy and hope since it does not know how to have peace but heaven is a peaceful, joyful and hopeful place so you will get refilled and learn to keep them.

The earth as much as it has plenty but everyone lives in the lack, we fight for the resources and everything. It is a place of survival of the fittest and everyone for themselves. In heaven you will learn to live in abundance and know that the king is your father and he is rich in everything and as a heavenly citizen you will not be consumed by thinking about what to eat, wear etc 2 Corinthians 9:8 And God is able to make all grace abound toward you; that ye, always having all sufficiency in all things, may abound to every good work: Life in the heavenly realms in not a struggle because everything is in abundance and when things happen on earth they won’t bother you because you live constantly in a better place and as you spend more time in the heavenly realms you can even see things before they happen and when they happen you will not be amazed. 1 Corinthians 2:10 But God hath revealed them unto us by his Spirit: for the Spirit searcheth all things, yea, the deep things of God.

Lots of love see you in the next episode

Do I have dual citizenship?

They don’t belong to this world, just as I don’t belong to this world.
John 17:16 CEB

I have this friend of mine who have a dual citizenship. She was born in country A and moved with her parents at a young age to country B and after sometime in country B they got citizenship. She will always brag about benefits of dual citizenship and explain that country B has so many benefits and opportunities for the citizens whilst country A is struggling. I always get jealous when she explains and I forget that I also have dual citizenship.

A born again Christian has dual citizenship, the first is on earth then in Heaven this is found in scriptures especially when you ask the Holy Spirit to reveal the benefits of being a child of God.Therefore, if you were raised with Christ, look for the things that are above where Christ is sitting at God’s right side. Think about the things above and not things on earth. You died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. Colossians 3:1‭-‬3 CEB. This verse say to you don’t think much on your earthly citizenship but focus on things above as a citizen of Heaven because your life is hidden in Christ who is on the right hand side of God the father. So we have dual citizenship.

And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:Ephesians 2:6 KJV. We sitting in heavenly places with Christ and we even called by our father to come boldly to the throne of grace because we are the citizens of his kingdom that deserve to approach the throne. Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.Hebrews 4:16 KJV.The benefit of dual citizenship

You might not believe that you have citizenship in Heaven now as in present tense, not when you die or you are dead and I understand because that was the gospel I was taught until Holy Spirit opened my eyes. At that day ye shall know that I am in my Father, and ye in me, and I in you.John 14:20 KJV. Jesus is with the father in heaven and we are in him and he is in us. The big question is where do we spend most of our time on earth or in Heaven, like my friend indicated that she loves Country B because of the benefits which means she will spend more time in country B

Lots of love, see you in next episode continuing with dual citizenship

Letter to a Dearest Friend

This letter is a letter written to God as our friend and often times we are not able to say everything in prayer but writting a letter to a friend is easier. I invite you to write him a letter because he enjoys hearing from you.

Dearest Friend

In the many years I have walked with you,you have made my journey easier because you never had too many expectation from me. You are always available when I need a shoulder to lean on and you always avail yourself when I feel like the walls of life are closing up on me. What you said in Proverbs about you as a friend closer, I have experienced first hand. Proverbs 18:24 A man that hath friends must shew himself friendly:and there is a friend that sticketh closer than a brother.

Thank you for being there when I was in pain, when I was experiencing loss, when I was sad and lonely and when everything around me did not make sense. You always said you are my strength Psalms 73:26 My flesh and my heart faileth:but God is the strength of my heart, and my portion for ever.

There were times when I was happy and achieving all that I had dreamed of and you were there as my cheerleader and I have truly understood what a true friend is with you. God as my true friend you have made this song so real in my life “What a friend we have in Jesus. All our sins and griefs to bear……………….We should never be discouraged. Take it to the Lord in prayer.Can we find a friend so faithful. Who will all our sorrows share? Jesus knows our every weakness. Take it to the Lord in prayer”

Lord as a friend to me and to all the nations, we bow our heads and kneel before you. We seek a solution to the virus COVID-19 which is killing your people and the economy. We are asking for your wisdom and healing power. We have found you to be the only one that can change the situation for us and we trust you have a solution.

We thank you in advance for your wisdom, protection and healing to the nations.

Your Friend

Lots of Love see you in the next episode

God loves you, yes you!

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. I wonder when reading this definition of love,whether is it humanly possible to have these characters in us but the God who created us can express all these characteristics in loving us.

Luke 15:20-24
And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him.And the son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’ But the father said to his servants, ‘Bring quickly the best robe, and put it on him, and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet. And bring the fattened calf and kill it, and let us eat and celebrate. For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found.’ And they began to celebrate. Looking at how our father love and accept us when we have messed up and are a mess ourselves. He does not look at what you have done but he feels compassion, washes you and dresses you with a gown that says you are mine you belong to me, and he puts a ring in your finger that says we are attached to one another for life and my love has not changed for you. God loves you with all your faults and when he looks at you, he only sees his dearest child who was lost but has come home to a loving and a kind palace. He is nothing like us because we will remind you of how messed up you are and even say , “I forgive you but cannot forget what you have done” or “you must work hard to earn our trust again”. God says I restore you to your initial place in my heart,you are mine and I love you deeply and I cannot lose you

Genesis 3:8
And they heard the sound of the Lord God walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and the man and his wife hid themselves from the presence of the Lord God among the trees of the garden. In this verse we see God visiting his people during the cool of the day, and we know when our friends visit us in the cool of the day, the intention is to chill, have fun and relax. So the God who loves us, has a desire to relax and chill with us but we have created a wall that we will only go to him when we want to ask for things, or praise and worship him,or pray and he created us for more than that. He wants to spend time with us as friends and enjoy our company. He even extends an invite for us to come to his throne boldly, which means we should come as people who qualify, who are righteous and deserving. Hebrews 4:16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need. You might be looking at yourself and feeling guilty or underserving but God loves us so dearly that is why he gave his only son to die for our sins in the cross, He is madly in love with you .

I have observed as a Christian that we tend to love God for things that he can do for us, not to love him as a friend and a lover which I see it as being equal to making him our “blesser”.Our parents and family members have taught us that they love us more when we do things for them and we have projected this behaviour to God that he loves us more when we bring something to him like our offerings or our fasting and praying or spending time in praise and worship but God loves us unconditionally, we are perfect with or without anything to offer. He specially created us so that he can enjoy our company and to love and appreciate his creation, he longs to spend time with us as friends. He walked with David who made a mistakes like any human being one being to sleep with someone’s wife but he called him a friend and Abraham was also his Friend and he also created Ishmael due to impatience of the promise. He knows we will falter but that is not important to him, what is important is to come back to his love and trust him that he is not looking at us with entrapment eyes that we will make other mistakes. He loves you so much, it pains him to see you not trusting his love

How much he loves you and me
Zechariah 2:8b for he that toucheth you toucheth the apple of his eye. You are the apple of his eye
Psalms 139:14a I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: You are wonderfully and fearfully made, you are not a duplicate of anyone.
Psalms 139:15 My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. He was there when you were formed in your mother’s womb, when not even one person knew you were there but he was there.
Isaiah 43:1 Israel’s Only Savior, But now thus says the Lord, he who created you, O Jacob,he who formed you, O Israel:“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;I have called you by name, you are mine. God has called you by your name and he says you are mine.
Isaiah 49:16a Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; God has engraved you in the palm of his hands,when he looks a his hands he sees you.
Revelation 1:6 and made us a kingdom, priests to his God and Father, to him be glory and dominion forever and ever. Amen. Jesus restored us to our original form, which was God’s intention from the beginning.
The entire bible speaks about how much God loves you and how much he desires to be your lover and a friend. He is a genuine friend and a true lover that won’t disappoint you.

I always ask myself a question,what did I do to deserve so much love because at times I feel like I m the only friend of God and the only person he loves so much and I know he wants to love you as much just open your heart and let him be your lover. Do you trust him as a lover or a friend? How do you relate to God the Father, is he a father you can share a joke with or is he a father who is for serious business?

Lots of love see you in the next episode of a friend

Faith that moves mountains


And without faith it is impossible to be well-pleasing unto him; for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that seek after him. Hebrews 11:6

In this episode my desire is to remind Christians that our God is bigger than any situation and our role is to trust him especially now when the situation seem hopeless . When listening and reading news daily, they demonstrate that the situation with COVID 19 is getting worse but if we all trust God to change the situation, we will begin to hear the good news. God completes what he has started, trust Him.

Lets look at testimonies that will help demonstrate “Faith Bag” Lets look at the father of faith Abraham: Hebrews 11:8 By faith Abraham, when he was called, obeyed to go out unto a place which he was to receive for an inheritance; and he went out, not knowing whither he went. Lets look at the faith bag in this instance, remember a faith bag is something you hold trusting God will fulfil. Abraham in his faith bag he put in the word of God that says ” Leave your family and go to the land that I will show you” and faith bag output which is the view of what is not seen, in his faith bag he took out ” the land was was fertile, rich and I will be great there”. God provided him with the land so big see Gen 13:15.God completes what he has started, trust Him.

My faith bag story 1: I was a leader of this institution and one day there was a big strike by employees and I was insulted in all different ways,you can imagine and I asked God to intervene.In my faith bag I put this word of God Isaiah 41:10 fear thou not, for I am with thee; be not dismayed, for I am thy God; I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. and out of my faith bag I had normality of the situation and a perfect solution.Two days later the strike ended and to my surprise the person who was in the forefront of the strike came to my office for assistance with a project. The anger within me just grew so strong and I tried to calm myself down and I don’t know how I happened to hear that still small voice saying “pray with him“. I started a conversation within myself and said no I can’t, but the voice kept on saying ” pray with him“at the end I agreed but s said “ok, I will pray for him”. The voice said “no,pray with him“and I said how do I do that because I don’t even know whether this person is Christian or not. The voice said “pray with him” and finally I obeyed. I asked the person can I pray with you, he said yes with excitement and I did not even know what to pray for but the Holy Spirit led me. After the prayer the person was crying hysterically and we could not even continue discussing the project. From that day forward when we had a problem he was the one who would say “let us talk we don’t need to strike and insult our leader”. God completes what he has started, trust Him.

Faith bag story 2: In my family we love God so dearly but we also allow different interpretation of faith applications. My husband and his friends would say that people who fall when prayed for are pushed to fall and also say they don’t understand when I teach the word of God in the service I cry and want to know what am I trying to achieve. I would try to explain that I am too intelligent to just cry in front of people but the Holy Spirit envelopes me but they would not understand. I decided to put this in my faith bag; in my faith bag was my prayer that said “God reveal yourself to my partner ” and out of my prayer bag I had a partner that understands God completely. One day I was invited to speak in another church and my husband happened to be attending a funeral in the same area on that same day. So we decided to go together to the funeral first, then to my speaking appointment and he invited his colleague to join him to the service. The service went well, I spoke about the living Jesus Christ and they asked me to pray for people and nearly everyone was in front for prayer and my husband was sitting and observing.

The power of God became so strong in the place and I could not even touch the people, just by looking at them they fell and some were crying and the environment was electric. I was also confused on what was happening and did not know how to react but kept on praying. After the service on our way home,I asked my husband to nap since I was tired, He said to me “today I have seen God in action and I repent and ask for forgiveness for all I’ve said before. Starting today I will support you in all your speaking invitations although I will not go with you because this experience was too much for me”. God completes what he has started, trust Him.

Faith bag has assisted me to see God act in ways that are amazing, God needs us to trust him. We need to hold on to our faith bag even when circumstances does not show that it will happen. Keep on saying in my faith bag, I have His word and He will honour it and I have the output of something not seen in my faith bag. God completes what he has started, trust Him.

In Faith Bag 1 I put in my faith bag the word of God and I took out normality of the situation from my faith bag. What God provided as an answer was Peace and stability. Faith bag 2 I put in my faith bag prayer about a situation and I took out understanding of the living God in my Faith bag. God’s answer was to reveal himself with power and might.

Lots of Love, lets meet in the next episode about the love un-deserved

Faith bag, do you have one?

Today I will be looking at faith in a Christian life which is most often challenged by fear, doubt and worry. When we start our Christ like journey we start by faith and in the end it will be by faith, which mean that faith is a critical element in a Christian life. It becomes a sad reality for a Christian to question their faith, asking these questions: Do I have enough faith? Is my faith the same size as a mustard seed? Do I even have faith?

For our comfort the people who journeyed with Jesus Christ on earth asked themselves the same questions ,which means we all at times question our faith Luke 17:5-6 The apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!”.And the Lord said, “If you had faith like a grain of mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you. Often times when we question our faith it’s when we pray for something and it does not happen or when we pray and do not receive the answer we are expecting.

What is Faith ? Hebrews 11:1Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. Substance is “the real physical matter of which a person or thing consists and which has a tangible, solid presence” Dictionary.com. Faith is Substance (Physical matter that can be seen, touched, smelled, tasted and heard) of something you hope for and Evidence is proof or exhibit of something not seen.

Let me introduce to you my handbag faith model : I have a handbag and I put things inside like a pen, purse, lipstick and when I need a pen I know its there.I just open my bag and take it out. So we need to have a ‘faith bag’ which can be similar to my handbag but the difference will be like your faith bag will be like your virtual card. In our faith bag we will put substance of things hoped for example like I hope for healing, the substance that I will put in my faith bag will be the word of God that speak to healing. The evidence of things not seen means I will take out of my faith bag a vision of myself doing things I couldn’t do before.

The problem we often experience is that life has been so difficult and we have been told that “easy come easy go” so many times. Simple things, like to love someone has become so difficult, because of the expectations. We have also made having faith so difficult and resorted to “Seeing is believing” One day in our church service, they asked this man to pray for something and he started tightening his fists, then changed his face and I confess I did not close my eyes , I was watching him. This man started praying by casting ,loosening and binding, it looked like a real war and I was standing there asking myself “does issues of faith have to be this hard Lord?”

When I started reading bible verses about Faith, it did not look that hard. Let’s look at the verses about faith or great faith and apply this to my faith bag model. Lets look at Luke 7:6-9
Then Jesus went with them. And when he was now not far from the house, the centurion sent friends to him, saying unto him, Lord, trouble not thyself: for I am not worthy that thou shouldest enter under my roof:Wherefore neither thought I myself worthy to come unto thee: but say in a word, and my servant shall be healed. For I also am a man set under authority, having under me soldiers, and I say unto one, Go, and he goeth; and to another, Come, and he cometh; and to my servant, Do this, and he doeth it.When Jesus heard these things, he marvelled at him, and turned him about, and said unto the people that followed him, I say unto you, I have not found so great faith, no, not in Israel
. Now applying the faith bag model :In the centurion faith bag what he puts in as a substance of something hoped for is Jesus word that has authority, and the evidence of things not seen that he has to take out of his faith purse was His servant doing his chores.

Mark 5:27-29,34 When she had heard of Jesus, came in the press behind, and touched his garment. For she said, If I may touch but his clothes, I shall be whole. And straightway the fountain of her blood was dried up; and she felt in her body that she was healed of that plague.
And he said unto her, Daughter, thy faith hath made thee whole; go in peace, and be whole of thy plague.
In the woman faith bag was one touch to Jesus clothes and evidence she had to take out of her faith bag was drying out of blood

This looks too simple and we are looking for difficult things. This evidence you have to see it in your mind or let me say visualise it spiritually. Lets apply this to Jesus journey on earth as He is our teacher and Role Model. Mark 4:38 – 40 And he was in the hinder part of the ship, asleep on a pillow: and they awake him, and say unto him, Master, carest thou not that we perish?And he arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm. And he said unto them, Why are ye so fearful? how is it that ye have no faith?
In Jesus Faith bag was the word of his father, peace and be still and evidence in the faith bag was great calm. I don’t know what is your level of faith and you might be thinking this is too easy, why is everyone not getting what they hope for? I cannot answer that but I have my faith bag and I am seeing grace everyday and I trust this verse Jeremiah 1:12 Then the Lord said to me, “You have seen well, for I am watching over my word to perform it.”

I hope faith bag will make you realised that you have been given a measure of faith according to Romans 12 :3 Put it in you faith bag and always cherish it

Lots of Love see you in the next episode where I will discuss my faith bag testimonies

Finding myself in my father’s loving arms

During the time my head and heart were conflicting, I experienced the love, gentleness and kindness of the father in God. He walked with me through my forgiveness and trust issues and not once did He judge me. I realised that God knows we are not perfect, knows that we have accepted Jesus Christ as our Lord and Saviour and we are born again. Although we still carrying lots of baggage either emotionally, physically, spiritually or financially which we still need to learn to let go of. I am inviting anyone who still struggles with some issues which might be anger, forgiveness,trust,jealousy, bitterness,unfaithfulness , ponography , drugs etc, that you might be carrying this load alone and can’t tell your fellow christian brothers and sisters because you fear how they will respond, know that you can’t hide your struggles from

God knows your frustrations that whatever you are carrying, let it not wear you down until you backslide. God is waiting for you to ask for help. He says in Matthew 11:28Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. What I have learned in my journey of finding him as a father is that he does not bandage our wounds or scars and act like they don’t exist but He takes time to clean the wound and take out all the poison also heal it from the root.

When I was dealing with the issues I had with my father, they were so deep and I had learnt in the process that forgiveness goes with trust. Most of us are not able to trust God completely because we have unresolved issues. Bring them to God, he is faithful and just to be a helping hand and if you cannot trust his hand just trust his heart.

In my journey of healing God never imposed himself as my father, but showed me in so many ways how much he cared and loved me. There were times when I would need a solution for a situation and I would make a small prayer and say “Father can you show me the way out” and in an instant I would have an answer. There was this one time I was lost, late in the evening in a very unsafe place and the GPS kept on sending me to a wrong direction, I was scared and I made a prayer to say “show me direction and please protect me in this place since I am afraid and need you as a father”. I kept on driving afraid to stop and where I stopped it was the place I was looking for. These were some of the instances where I learned to trust him, to know he has my back and cares deeply for me. 


There was one incident that really made me see God as a father who cares,respects and keeps his word.My family and I went to Durban with a group of friends one festive season, on this day the beach was full and we went to join the fun. I was playing with my youngest daughter who was then two and a half years, as we were playing I felt a need to go further in the water and there was one lady in our group who was sitting on the sand and I asked her to look after my daughter as I venture deeper in the water and she agreed. A Few minutes later I came out,the lady was still there but my daughter was not there and I asked her where is my daughter and she said that my daughter had run after me. We looked for her and we could not find her, I knelt down and prayed to the father I was beginning to trust and asked him to bring my child back safe since I know that you said You will never leave us nor forsake us I know you are with her right now. Just when I was still in my kneeling position I heard the loud speaker saying we have found a little girl, come and collect her at the safety guards. I became numb and my husband went and collected our baby girl. Our daughter appeared to be tired and exhausted, it seemed she had been swimming alone and the sea threw her out and that is when she was found. I saw the father’s hand in this incident and realised that God is a true father that I need and he was there all the time.

God has been there as a Father all the time, but my focus was on my biological father because I wanted him to love me, care for me and be there for me as his seed. God as a Father was watching over me, loving me and caring for me but I was busy hurting to even notice. God did not give up on me until I came to Him and opened my heart,and he showed me love and taught me how to forgive and learn to trust him.

I am happy for the relationship we have built. I love and trust him as my father and as my close friend, In him I have a friend that I can share my life with. I am happy to be found by Him,I know I was lost and now I am found.

Lots of love see you in the next episode.

My head and heart can’t agree

Christians most often tend to be holier than thou and become so judgemental and forget that it was only by grace that they were saved. In my Christ- like journey, I realised that it was not easy to let go of some of the things that were entrenched within myself and used to define me. Galatians 5:17
For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.
When we are born again, the person born again who is the new Spirit person inside us still resides in the old person our physical body. The new person wants to dominate the old person but this is not just easy as some of us think because the new person need to be fed the word of God and grow to be a giant that can overcome the old person. My initial conflict was how to relate to God as my father and Christianity is a journey.

I had a conflict within me about “Our Heavenly Father” and you might wonder why did I have a conflict with something so simple. In my head its was logical to call God my Father but my heart will not accept or agree. This was worse when I was in the mist of people who will call God my Heavenly Dad or just Dad. This frustrated me a lot and could not share it with my fellow brothers and sisters for fear of judgement and being misunderstood when not everyone understand that Christianity is a journey

My reaction was caused by the fact that my biological father left me and my mom when I was still in Pre- School. What made matters worse was the fact that he married my mother’s neighbour which meant I would see him regularly when visiting his in laws. I grew up angry with him and the neighbours , I will throw dirt in their yard until my grandmother noticed and she discipled me thoroughly- I hope you understand when I say thoroughly and that stopped the un- becoming behaviour but did not heal the pain and anger.

There were times when I had to create an imaginary father at school especially when I was amongst friends who will be talking about their dad’s. I asked myself what happened between my father and my mother that made him to hate me so much?I also asked myself why was I being punished for their misunderstandings or problems? I could not ask my mother because she did not want to talk about him, and called him “that bastard” and that would end any discussion or questions you had

Now in my Christian life I had to relate to God as my father,that was hard because I knew a father as someone who will abandon you, someone who will reject you and someone who will live life like you don’t exist. I wish fathers could read this so that they can understand the pain they cause in their children’s lives.

I remember this case :One day we were at a conference with my colleague and a lady who was also at the conference, as we were introduced realised the surname of my colleague was his father’s surname. So during breaks she will sit with my colleague and tell him that she has never met her father but was told his surname and its the same surname with my colleague but my colleague did not know the man. In the evening gala dinner on the last day of the conference my colleague decides to tell me about the story of this lady. I got so angry ,that why was she looking for someone who never cared for her? My colleague could not understand the anger and I started crying and left the event and I cried the whole night. The next day my eyes were swollen red and I decided not go to breakfast but pack my bags and go home.This made me realise that even after so many years I was still angry with my father and had buried these emotions for years especially that my dad had already passed on.

I prayed and told God that’s it was hard for me to see and relate to him as my father, and the God who answers in that still small voice said to me “forgive your father“. I asked how, when its hurting so bad and God said take it step by step forgive him for each and everything that he did or did not do. From that moment I took a step to forgive him for everything that came to my mind that required forgiveness. I started by saying I forgive you for …. look at these examples: I forgive you for abandoning me, I forgive you for not being there as my father when I needed you the most, I forgive you for not visiting me when I was sick in hospital for six months, I forgive you for not saying I am sorry for hurting you. I forgive you for the day when fathers were giving their children Christmas presents at the hall and you were not there. I forgive you for ………….. This process took long but it helped me to find peace and start a journey of healing. I still finding things that I have to forgive him for since Christianity is a journey

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One day on my prayer moments, I hope you understand that there are days when you just pray and the are days when you pray and connect. These are the days I call prayer moments, as I was praying to God as a provider and I asked God when you say you are a provider what does it mean? God brought this picture in my mind which had never meant anything in the past. The vision was about an event that happened when my children were still young, and in the vision which really happened; My children saw an ice-cream man in the street and ran home to their dad and said daddy ice- cream man with their eyes full of excitement and daddy understood this means buy us ice cream. Their dad said go ask him how much and they ran stopped ice- cream man and came back to collect money from daddy, they were full of joy. They went and bought ice cream and came back to eat it in front of their dad who was watching with a smile. God said to me can you see how these children came home to their father knowing he will not disappoint them as their provider also watch the joy in the father’s eyes when he sees them happy. This was an answer that God as a provider was like this dad also God was revealing to me a caring father.

It has been a journey in me finding my Heavenly father and I will share with you in the next episode how it all came together. I now have a Father and an Amazing Dad

Lots of love,lets meet in the next episode

Why complicate something so simple

I made a prayer for healing, I was struggling with a terrible pain from rheumatoid arthritis. It was so painful to even lift up my hands, especially when I was dressing and I would bend so that I make it easy to remove and put on clothes. I prayed, asked to be healed as 1 Peter 2:24
who his own self bare our sins in his body upon the tree, that we, having died unto sins, might live unto righteousness; by whose stripes ye were healed.
and waited with expectation. Whilst waiting my mind was creating doubt that I had been praying to be healed for years now,what will be different with this prayer. Remember in my previous stories I have indicated that I prayed for healing but did not get results. I remember one time my colleague asked me, since you pray so much why are you still sick. My answer to him was even Paul suffered and God said to him 2 Corinthians 12:9
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

After a week as I was waiting expectantly I observed the external piles that I had which has formed small lumps on the outside edge of the anus whereby my GP had adviced to book for operation urgently had vanished . The bleeding and pain was gone and I went to consult for confirmation and GP confirmed that the lumps were gone and he will postpone the operation. God answers prayer

My BP was not controllable, doctors kept on increasing medication.I was taking 5 different pills for high blood pressure only not speaking about other pills for other health issues, below is my reading which was not fine. Normal BP should be 120/80 you can see mine was way too high. The next thing I observed my BP was becoming normal and my pills began to be reduced from five now I am on 3 pills daily see readings below. God answers prayer

My Abnormal BP
My Normal BP

Now the big issue; Rheumatoid Arthritis, Presently I am not having any pain, still get swollen, can lift my hands, I can bend my knee and still praying for cartilage to grow back. Thinking that doctors cannot explain why am I walking, if its not Grace then I don’t know what it is. Let me share with you a story about my trip to Russia where I went with my Colleagues and got sick whilst in Russia and was taken to hospital . When we got to the hospital before I could see the doctor, blood tests and some X-rays were done. I went with the nurse who understood English to the consulting room and when we got in, the doctor and the nurse had a conversation which seemed like they were arguing at last they offered me a chair. I asked the nurse what might be the problem and she indicated that doctor had studied my blood and X-Ray results and was not expecting a walking patient. Then the doctor checked me and asked me which African Herb I was using to be still walking with level 4 Rheumatoid Arthritis. I said I walk by faith not by sight, there is no African Herb I am taking. They looked at me like I have gone banana’s and laughed. Current I can do things I was not able to do, I can bend my fingers, I walk without pain, I am seeing huge improvements and still expecting more everyday. I have learned to say I am not able to do this now but I know I am healed this too is going away. I know its hard but everyday I am expecting more until I am completely healed.God answers prayer

My pain has made me a better person and I understand when someone is in pain because I can relate. It has taught me not to be judgemental, or call people names. I pray that society can stop looking at sick people and thinking their sins are burning them, what sin did I do at thirteen years to suffer such pain. I am grateful for the life I have and I would not understand the mercy and favour to this level. Remember Pray asking, have faith or believe you got and answer, expect results. God wants you to be his Friend and Friends love each other, they talk to each other, laugh together, share secrets and special and painful moments John 15:13-15

Lots of Love see you in my next episode about Encounters

Conversations that changed my spiritual life

How am I sure it was not a conversations in my mind

One time I had this pestering voice, waking me up to pray for this lady who I met through a friend of mine. We were not friends with this lady, it was someone I met maybe three times. The voice will wake me up for three consecutive nights to pray for this lady and I prayed for her protection and to find what she is looking for and I noted this days in my Journal because it was strange. After approximately two months I met my friend who introduced us and I told her about what happened on these days and asked her where is the lady. She just stood there and cried and after sometime she explained that the lady’s boyfriend , had beaten her , stabbed her and thought she was dead. He took her to a jungle and buried her on a shallow grave, she stayed there for three days and was found by boys hunting with dogs and then taken to hospital where Ishe was in a comma for a month but now she is recovering and the dates I am mentioning are the dates she was in the shallow grave. My mind would not come up with this

Another time, I was with my daughter at home and we locked the doors as twe went to sleep as usual. At about 1:00 I heard a soft knock at my bedroom door and I said come in but no one came in,I thought maybe I was dreaming and went to sleep again. I heard the same knock again and a small voice within said wake up and pray. I went on my knees next to my bed and prayed, I slept on my knees with my head leaning on the bed that day. My husband arrived at 4:45 from his trip and found all doors in our home wide open . He found me fast asleep on my knees and woke us up,asking how can we sleep with doors open.We explained that we locked the doors as we went to sleep but can’t explain how all doors are open and nothing stolen. We remembered that the were set of keys that had gone missing long time ago and maybe the person/s who opened used those keys but what they saw or heard I can’t explain but something happened that night. My mind would not come up with this

One day I was in church service and the still small voice told me to tell the gentlemen in front of me that God has heard his prayers and they will have a son. I knew the gentlemen but was not aware that they were praying for a child. After the service I called him aside and told him what I heard.He hugged me with tears in his eyes and left, three months later he came so happy and told me his wife was expecting a child and they were later blessed with a baby boy. My mind would not come up with this.

In all this I am just saying God is speaking to all of us,the question is are we listening? With all the noise and busyness in our lives it is easy to miss the still small voice within that is guiding, comforting and providing wisdom also we must note that what He says must align with His Word.These are just three instances that I am sharing now, I have plenty which I will be sharing in this journey.

Continuing with my question of expectation,as we proceeded to discuss with Holy Spirit, He gave me a scripture to read see below and expressed that 1. Pray and Ask, 2. Believe you have received and 3. Expect to have it. I asked in our conversation that praying and asking is easy but what must I do to show that I believe I have received. He answered very simple, If a child asked his capable father to buy him soccer boots and the father has said yes I will buy them. Does it mean, the child will sit and wonder whether the father will buy or not? But the child will go in confidence celebrating the boots. The problem with you, you not sure whether your Heavenly Father have said yes or is capable but He has already said whatsoever you Pray ask and you shall have them. I made a prayer that same day and asked for healing and also quoted 1 Peter 2:24
who his own self bare our sins in his body upon the tree, that we, having died unto sins, might live unto righteousness; by whose stripes ye were healed.

Mark 11:22-24
22.And Jesus answering saith unto them, Have faith in God.
23.Verily I say unto you, Whosoever shall say unto this mountain, Be thou taken up and cast into the sea; and shall not doubt in his heart, but shall believe that what he saith cometh to pass; he shall have it.
24. Therefore I say unto you, All things whatsoever ye pray and ask for, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them.

Prayer results in the next episode

Lots of love see you in the next episode